owning up

Haven't been doing so well, lately, with really just hovering at 80 kilos for the past two months. Not so much maintaining, but gaining 1, losing 1, etc... I am still trying to get into a routine that works for me again. I was going brilliant at the end of last semester, getting down from 82.5 kg down to 76 kg. I am now around 80.
I have been hoping that guessing my balance of good/bad foods, a little exercise and luck would get me through. But drinks and nights out haven't been so kind the day after. I actually think that lately I've been eating to avoid homework. ("Oh, can't sit down to do this before making myself a snack/lunch/dinner or I'll be hungry mid-concentration").

I am now going to focus on drawing up a plan that will work for myself :)

I have gone to the supermarket and stocked up and good, fresh foods and some healthier treat options, and am hoping these will help. Tomorrow I will go for an hour walk around the park in the sunshine. Although the yo-yoing has been frustrating, I'm trying not to make too much of a deal out of it. Even getting down to 75 kilos would just be brilliant for me, and make summer more comfortable, so I have to find that motivation to say no to the bigger portion sizes, and that 9th drink/packet of snakes... So- no less, no more than the points I'm alloted for the day. I have also purchased jarrah choc drinks for late-night chocolate hits!

The brilliant news is that I do fit into size 14 in most shops (besides the skin-tight ones, that is!). I was even a size 12 jeans in Sussan! But that doesn't change the fact I have a lot of 'middle' to contend with that shouldn't be there- likewise thighs.
I just need to hit the right balance again, and stop being so complacent.

Losing weight isn't the be-all-end-all of the world... but at the same time, I have recognised it as a definite priority in my life. Now I just need tunnel vision to achieve my goals!!

x Kristy :)