well, there's nowhere to hide here.

My mum came over yesterday, which is just what I needed.
Unfortunately, more chocolate was eaten- and a chai latte, and a scone with jam and cream, and for dinner- a really fattening pub version of bruschetta, followed by a little salad bar, 3 light beers, a bread roll (with butter) and... a slice of chocolate cake... followed by a few biscuits and tea before bedtime.

That's it- it's out, out, out in the open.

I'm confused.

I adore eating/living healthy, love making reasonable choices and having a small amount of chocolate/vice foods in my diet.
I've been feeling fabulous, so happy with my choices, feel full, don't feel i'm going 'without'.

Oh... except... I feel 'without' when I don't binge eat.
It's not missing chocolate... it's missing HUGE amount of chocolate.
It's not missing ice-cream... I could have that every day! And that's fine in my food-routine. But it's HUGE amounts of ice-cream that I miss.

In short... I miss eating things in massive quantities.

I'm annoyed at myself.
Why this 'all-or-nothing' mentality? I need to take care of myself. It's responsibility.
If I make poor decisions my weight/life will suffer.

Eurgh. I'm just so frustrated.

I just need to get this out in the open.

x Kristy